Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Andrew & I go for a ride in Lauren's Dora Jeep, he thought it was pretty scary because of the noise it makes and wouldn't get in it alone.
The boys love to give hugs and kisses. Adam says "Oooh-Weee" for a kiss and Andrew says "Mmmmm-Mah"
This is the first picture ever of Adam where I think I might kinda sorta see a little of me somewhere in there. Maybe he really is related to me a tiny bit ;-)
Andrew working on feeding therapy, quite a mess but he enjoyed getting to use the spoon all by himself!
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
You are probably wondering where I'm going with this. Well when Andrew got home from school yesterday I removed his shoes and they were full of rocks. Rocks in your shoes doesn't usually spring forth praises for most people but I was overwhelmed with the image of my son on the playground with the other children, playing happily, engaged with his peers, and enjoying life. Just like I begged God that he would. Now I'm not saying that things haven't been and won't be challenging in the future nor that God would be any less awesome or wonderous if none of my prayers were answered, but in this moment I praise him for Andrew's Quality of Life.
The life that the doctors' predicted that he'd never have when we learned of his severe Grade IV IVH:
In the NICU we were advised to consider discontinuing treatment should Andrew take a turn for the worse as his Quality of Life would be extremely minimal. Do I want my son to know these things? Do I want you to know these things? It's a testimony to the greatness of God's work in his life but it sure does sting. By God's grace Andrew progressed and we were never called upon to make such a decision, and even now it's a place that is too painful to even allow myself to ponder.
I don't know why God has poured out this miracle upon us. My son is walking, he's talking, he's giving and recieving affection. He hears, he sees. He has a sense of humor, he LOVES to read, he's bright and sweet and joyful. There are so many children that have not been so fortunate and that doesn't mean God is any less good or loving to those families or that it's because they didn't have enough faith or prayers. While I'm grateful beyond anything that I can put into words for Andrew's amazing progress, I will always be haunted by the "why's"? When I first learned of the assault on his fragile brain I thought, "Why my son God, WHY?" And now the "Why" is still there but it's different now, it's full of both immense joy and guilt, overwhelmingly grateful but completely unworthy. And if I'm being totally honest, inspite of how far he's come and seeing God's faithfullness staring me in the face, there are still moments when I wonder "Why?" did we have to go through all this.
I know the "why's" in my heart are not mine to ask but they are there no less.
But I have peace knowing the answers lie in heaven and I trust and believe that "God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Rom 8:28
Even if the doctors had been right.
My dear sweet Andrew, even on the days when you find that you have rocks in your shoes, remember God's faithfulness to us. YES, This life was indeed worth living And I praise God for every day that you are in it! God is good, he is good indeed.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Peek A Boo
Grandma & Grandpa came to visit! Adam 's face is terribly beat up right now as he's started trying to run everywhere and his body moves faster than his feet and his face always hits the ground first, poor baby!
Grandpa & Grandma bought the boys a basketball goal and it's a big hit!
Have they changed much since last year?
They won't be able to share the swing for much longer!
Look there's Grandma!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Some photos from the park:
I don't know if it's the horseback riding, the change in therapy regimen, attending school with more developed children, or what but Andrew's walking had exploded this past week! Look how far he walked to go see the "ball"
I'm SO proud of Andrew's progress. Other than his little braces, his "differences" from the other children seem to be getting less and less every day
I swore I'd never be one of those moms who posted gross food pictures of her kids but I just couldn't help myself since this blog is a record for the boys, and I thought these were pretty funny
This is an expression I'm getting to see all too often these days.
Thanks to Mom, Dana, Shawn, & Kenny we finally moved over the last of our furniture from the old house and the boys are sleeping in their beds in their new room!
I LOVE craigslist, check out our new play cube with a slide we got for next to nothing! Andrew has really gotten into books lately and brings you them one after the other to read to him so we put their rocker out here by the book shelf to make a comfy reading area
In addition to the new slide, I've also used craigslist to locally sell my old dining room furniture, an old tv with a table, my old washer & dryer, and a double stroller we never used. And then I bought a barely used front loading washer/dryer for less than a third of the retail price. I've only had one problem when someone sent me a $3200 check for a $150 set of bedside tables in an attempt to scam us, people are NUTS so you have to be careful!! But other than that, it's been really handy and it's free unlike ebay and others.